Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Learn

Love and accept me before anyone else, I'm told. And yet, I reach out to find someone to validate that I am indeed loveable.

"Did you miss me?" I asked him. "Of course! You were my one good laugh a day." I delighted in this response, but it is not enough. This response will never be enough because I'll want more. I'll be greedy and he can't provide anything that'll be sufficient for the expanding hunger.

A hug. And a deeper hug. I'm in a slice of heaven, but it is not enough. This hug will never be enough because I'll want more. I'll be greedy and he can't provide anything that'll be sufficient for the expanding hunger.

Learn to accept myself as I am. Learn to see myself as enough. Learn to just be.

The simplest and the hardest.

Friday, March 6, 2015

How?

I am still working on how to differentiate between what belongs to someone's projections, and what belongs to me. How do I distinguish this? 

I had a hard conversation with a co-worker and there was a bit from her that came off as judgment. Perhaps somewhere between what she had to say and what I feel is taking place lies the truth.