Monday, April 25, 2016

Homesick

For a place you couldn't tangibly feel for the last 4 decades
What does your vulnerability actually long for when you spill bitterness from your mouth?
How much does it hurt?
Is it still an open wound?
You speak as though it happened last week
It's been this vivid for my entire life.

I have a strained relationship with releasing my thoughts online. I'm scared of the possible criticism - and not the constructive kind. But, what could happen if I were to be so *special* as to receive an onslaught of criticism? Bullying is tangible. Emotional and mental health are tangible.

What is the balance between self-protection and outward-vulnerability? I equate the latter with freedom, but neglecting the former feels shortsighted.

Friday, April 1, 2016

Abandonment

I've abandoned this shit because I felt I was over-exposed. Well, that's really subjective because my over-exposure could be someone else's under-exposure.

But, I'm back publicly to ponder aloud about what are our various ideas of human currency. I've heard the usual - intelligence, attractiveness, passion, drive, etc. But, what does that really say about other people? Doesn't that limit their humanity to just these things that we value? The whole projection shit is so fascinating. So so so so fascinating.

I haven't gotten anywhere with that. My currency projection, as of late, has been kindness. I am inclined to say fuck these limited notions of intelligence and blah blah, and instead ask, how kind are you? How are you making the world a better place, not just for you, but for your fellow human(s)?